Friday, June 1, 2012

One Less-Fatherless Friday

Today is a joyful day. So joyful that I could not sleep, hmmm will 5 hours be enough to get me through the day? My eyes feel sandy, you know the feeling. But I am finding SO much joy in my purpose. Finally being able to share more about the sweet little boy that stole our hearts and will hopefully soon be stealing his big brother's toys!
Paper pregnant. What an awesome reality. A little one on the way, no morning sickness, afternoon sickness or evening sickness! No swollen ankles, maternity clothes, and no waddling! LOVE THIS! My body seems to know what is going on though and my emotions are overactive! My Husband summed it up yesterday when he described me as this: "Turkey brain, angry. Turkey brain, sad. Turkey brain, angry." Turkey brain is a term of endearment when I am being funny (often at his expense) and he is unable to come up with a witty response. (Who is the real turkey brain, eh?) I am scared, excited, joyful, teary, committed and eager. Did I mention scared?
I know I have said it numerous times but yes, I am scared. Shaking in my boots, scared. I have stepped forward before. I paid quite a price and am still paying. I guess I will say I am "twice shy" and leave it at that. I really must work on leaving the trauma in the past and look to the future with hope and confidence. I will work on that!

So, to answer the general questions:

Q: Why?
A: Look at this boy! How could I resist?
Q: When?
A: Well I saw his face on May 16th and on May 19th we were committed to this child on RR. It is estimated that adoptions from this region take 7 months so we are really working to get him home before the end of the year. Please pray with us that this happens!

Q: How?
A: Perhaps I should answer this one when the adoption is complete. I am unsure how. . by God's grace alone. And my thrift savings plans. And hopefully some donations by some wonderfully kindhearted people? (pretty please?) 

Okay, I am going back to the why question. It all boils down to who it is that I want to be. How I want to live. The world I want to leave for my children. How I want to answer God if/when I get to heaven. Just because I cannot save them all does not mean that I should not bend over backward to save at least one from a life in an institution. My brief time in India with the Missionaries of Charity will stay with me forever. I often hear Mother Teresa in my head. . .her quiet, powerful call to love the unloved. The example that she lived every. single. day. I promised myself that I WOULD be the change that I wanted to see in the world. I WOULD scream about justice especially for innocent victims. I WOULD put my money where my mouth is. .. not that I have much money, but I will walk the walk. I WILL open my arms and heart and home to a precious child because it is simply the right thing to do. Now, I am not saying that everyone should adopt. No. I am really talking about me right now. Not everyone should adopt. Not everyone should have bio kids. Not everyone should have pets. Not everyone should be allowed to operate a motor vehicle (I see these people almost every day. grrrrr.) Everyone has their own path and journey and I respect that (unless your "journey" involves driving like everyone is in a bumper car. Okay, I respect your journey, just stay off the road!) I do find it difficult to understand the person that can see a sweet face and NOT want to provide for that child, knowing the dire situation they are in. That is beside the point and perhaps my failure. It is far too easy to get caught up in the "American Dream." Laziness. Extravagance. Entitlement. In reality the "american dream" is not such a pretty picture. I am learning that sacrifice leads to happiness far more than selfishness does. So....
I am working for one less!
There is one less day now that Pasha will be without a family. 
One less day spent in a crib. 
One less day in a diaper that is not changed but once a day.
One less day spent entirely indoors. 
One less day without tickles on his belly. 
One less day.
Every form I complete. . .. well it is one less form standing between me and my son. One less! Paperwork has never been this exciting! It is not everyday that a person  gets to make such a statement about who they are and what they believe in. Pasha is giving me a chance to live out what I believe in the most AWESOME way . ..every day of my life for the rest of my life. And I will get snuggles in return! How kick ass is that?
One less child waiting in a dark, cold, hungry place! I wish more people would see the joy and possibility and join me in my quest for ONE LESS!





Seriously, how can anyone resist these sweet children? Maybe I need to rewrite this to say Two less?? 

21 comments:

  1. Your little son-to-be is absolutely beautiful! What a sweet little face - and so alert for such a little one.

    I hope your adoption journey goes swiftly and easily (and I'd send you some casserole recipes if I had any worth sending. Have you seen those four-ingredient cookbooks? They are about my speed...)

    Sending best wishes,
    Susan in Ky
    Cousin to 2 from EE
    RR Advocate

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    1. Susan- THANK YOU! Comments like this rock! I assure you that we are not starving here. . but I am totally always game for new, EASY recipes! I will have to Google 4 ingredient recipes! Thank you!

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    2. Good luck! You can also find five-ingredient recipes, and if you're really feeling ambitious, six-ingredient ones! :-)

      Here's a super-easy, super-quick five ingredient dessert recipe for "Kentucky Fruit Pudding":

      1 can or cup of fresh or canned fruit (cherries, berries, and peaches are my favorites to use with this recipe)
      1/2 C. flour
      1/2 stick of butter or margarine
      1/2 C. sugar or sugar substitute
      cinnamon to taste.

      Heat oven to 375. Melt butter in a saucepan atop stove. When melted, add flour and sugar and mix into a loose dough. While butter is melting, dump fruit into a baking dish and add cinnamon to flavor. If fruit is tart, add extra sugar to taste. Top the fruit with the streusel-like dough and pat it flat. Bake for about 45 minutes or until topping is very slightly browned, remove, add whipped topping or vanilla ice cream. Makes about four servings.
      (Original recipe is in Marion Flexner's "Out of Kentucky Kitchens")

      Have fun...I enjoy your blog.

      Susan in Ky
      Cousin to 2 from EE

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  2. I LOVE it Becki!!! So well said. I am behind you all the way and can't wait to help you along your journey.

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    1. Thank you! I am so thrilled to have met you, I am inspired by your family and your journey! So excited to see where it leads you!

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  3. You hit the nail on the head, Becki. I am just SO thrilled for you and your family! Will be praying for a fast process so you can bring this sweet little one HOME. :)

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    1. Thank you Flamingo Girl! I feel that I should know you. Do I know you? I totally appreciate you reading and supporting us!1

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  4. Hi Becki,
    Nice to meet you! Pasha is such a cutie. I'm so excited for your family. I can't wait to see the blog post about your first meeting (those are the best, aren't they??).

    Amber

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    1. I agree! I cannot even imagine the emotions involved in meeting your child for the first time! I am thrilled to have you along for the ride!

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  5. You know that I am going to pretend that I had some tiny bit to do with this one, right? hee hee
    And yes, you should bring 2, I want the girl but you can choose yours first. RDHS* is still going on here...



    *reluctantdhsyndrome

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    1. You should totally know you had a hand in this and I am so grateful!! I am praying about two and we will see what God does with my hubby on that subject! I would adopt so many if given the opportunity!

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  6. WOO HOO!!! So excited for you!! Be prepared - the emotions/hormones are just as crazy with your paper pregnancy! You'll cry at the drop of a hat, and certainly when you see "gotcha" pictures, your inner mama-bear will come out in full force, and you just might (perhaps I speak from experience?!?) want to buckle your dossier paperwork into a rear-facing car seat *just in case* when you're on the way to FedEx. :) Congrats!!!

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    1. Haha so funny! Tell me you buckled it in, for real!! I would LOVE THAT!

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    2. I didn't. My husband thought I had lost my mind when I mentioned that I wish I had a carseat for our dossier. :) Hey that paper work is my two children!!!

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  7. So happy for you... am with u on this journey... at least in spirit... he is such a sweetheart! Praying...

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  8. Congrats. Best of luck to you!

    I was guessing Mark 31C

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    1. Awesome guess and I am still his Prayer Warrior and Advocate. Love that little boy. My hubby is not sure a DS child is something he can handle at this juncture.

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    2. I do too, with the exact same hold-up. He is such an adorable little guy, and he looks a lot like my fiance, who is also named Mark.

      We have the same taste. I had inquired about your little one, as HIV, HepC would be a much easier sell to my other half. We didn't qualify as we aren't hitched yet. I'm so glad you found him, and I look forward to following your journey and seeing lots of cute pics :)

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  9. Wow, Becki, that's exciting! He's very cute! It's amazing that you're doing this. I'm proud of you! God bless,
    Heiko

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    1. Heiko, I hope you feel free to keep reading! AND let's get together for coffee sometime soon!

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