Wednesday, October 16, 2013

What love can do

On Oct 17th 2012 little Evan walked into the room where Eli, Husband and I were anxiously waiting. Our world tilted on its axis and life was never the same.


[I have so much that I want to say but I must warn everyone that I am in the midst of some serious sleep deprivation courtesy of my lovely little boys so I apologize if sentences run on, suddenly end or make no sense whatsoever. This is the reality that I am living in and I did not want the day to go by unacknowledged. .. so this is my disclaimer.]

This was the photo in the file. The photo I said "no" to. Silly me. This is the boy I thought I would meet. With the super sad eyes. Such a forlorn little face.


In walked this little guy. He had our hearts immediately. Worlds changed that day.
Our first moments with Evan. Look at those cheeks. He did not make eye contact once during this meet and greet. 


One year ago we met a little boy and we said yes. What a crazy journey this past year has been. Evan has grown and changed right before my very eyes. He is speaking and joking, fighting and testing. Running and building, eating and playing, hugging and pushing. All the things he is supposed to be doing.  He is no longer the baby that we brought home, but a boy, a student and a strong- willed, loving son.

Looking back I am SHOCKED by the transformation!

Eli and Evan quickly bonded and learned to play together.  Evan was so teeny compared to Eli and his motor skills were shaky at best. Walking and running was clearly not something practiced regularly.


Our first play date. He was clearly uncomfortable. 



Oh, what a convoluted and heartbreaking path led us to that room on that fated day, waiting for the child that was clearly meant to be ours. God has such a way of opening eyes and hearts, even the most conflicted of hearts and filling them with blessings.


It has been a hard, frustrating, scary, tiring, joyful, amazing and wondrous journey. In reality, we are still just at the beginning of this journey, but it is totally worth looking back to see how far the year has taken us. What love, patience and faith can yield.

Thank you Evan for changing my life. For opening my eyes. For making me better. For being such an amazing brother and friend to Eli. For replacing my fear and trepidation with love and laughter. For making me cry with love and frustration. For making me learn and grow for your sake. For the never ending piles of laundry created by your need to be fashionably dressed....when you deem clothing to be necessary. For "lubbing" me in the way that only you can. You amaze me and I love you so very much.